bye, baby

I just went in to rock a fussing Bonzo for the second time tonight and held him while we waited for the Motrin to kick in. He rubbed his head in the crook of my arm and wanted to nurse, but after that he got all wiggly and ended up lying against my chest. His legs were sprawled out in different directions and his head rested over the edge of my shoulder and touched the back of the chair. Suddenly I realized: my little baby is leaving, almost gone. A little boy is showing up in his place. Bonzo's legs are strong now and he's standing alone, but they're also too big to fold into the crook of my arm or tuck into my lap. He moves himself anyplace he wants to go. I had no idea it would happen so suddenly.

It's a good thing he's such a cute boy. I suppose I'm okay with the trade.